eww this is gross. how did friday, turn into saturday, which turned into SUNDAY? i HATE sundays like even more then monday because then you have think about starting your week all over again for 24 hours straight. AHH WHY CANT IT BE SUMMER ALREADY?! I miss wearing shorts, flip flops and short sleeved shirts and not being freezing to death. i also hate wearing a coat and scarf and hat and gloves EVERYWHERE I GO! it's so insane, i am SO phsyced about summer it's not even funny...i am HALF WAY THROUGH WITH BEAUMONT!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!! AND MY LOCKER IS CLEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FOUND A LOT OF MOLD IN THAT LOCKER...sick...

okay i am sick of having fucking long hair. i just want to chop it all of so i dont have to shower, blow dry it, then straighten it. it all takes about 1-2 hours JUST to do my HAIR! plus add on another 45 minutes deciding what to wear and to get my make up on. being a girl is hard. hard hard hard HARD. i dont want to hear a boy complain to me EVER about dealing with stress and being...fatiuged. because girls have it MUCH WORSE! you have to deal with getting your period every month, waking up early enough so you can shower, do your hair, and makeup....we have to worry about if our boobs are too big or small and buy the right bra sizes, we have to somehow manage to keep our asses still fitting into size 0 pants (which is tough work...i would KNOW) and then theres all the other stuff that guys have to go through too. it's not fucking fair. i wouldnt trade it to be a...guy...but its not like people can tell me that i dont have to do it, because i DO...because people judge girls so much, it's insane. guys need to shut up, stop trying to act like they are way tighter and better then girls because you're NOT! girls go through waaaaaaaaaaay more than every guy in the world put together...well...maybe not THAT BIG...but we do deal with a lot more pressure and stress. i think that was very well put elizabeth, i make excellent points often about guys being retarted...wait though seriously, guys. will. die.

TODAY IS JANUARY 20TH, 2004!!!!!! it's my brothers birthday.....jake epstein, definitly had a birthday four days ago...janey, definitly had a birthday 3 days ago...so good. januarylol yay


okay know what is NOT GOOD? i totally just deleted a HUGE ASS fucking big blog entry i was JUST about to submit it....and....i accidently somehow deleted it because this computer, can suck AAAAAASSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay i will just type it ALL BACK UP! okay:

i dont know WHAT I DID WRONG! i swear, like...i am not denying anything, i said mean things AFTERWARDS, but all day today, i totally ignored them i didn't pay ANY attention to them whatso ever except when jazmyn stepped on my shoe (wow...really GOT ME THERE JAZMYN STEPPING ON MY ALREADY DIRTY ADIDAS...but wait, that was bitchy...you got dirty on them) anyways, like i've been totally mature about it and just kind of concentrating on my...academics and stuff, but all of them are really mad at me. all of them. i didnt FUCKING TALK ABOUT JAZMYN GREEN, I DIDNT SAY JASMINE MADE ME UNHAPPY....EVER....I NEVER SAID THAT....AND KATI IS MAD AT ME...BECAUSE SHE IS KATI AND FOLLOWS EVERYONE! i really don't care if kati hates me, because...she is no one important, but please, someone, tell me what i fucking DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like when they try to explain to me, it turns out being either
a. you ditched me (which isnt true at ALL you can see it as ditching, but i can see it as an honest mistake that i apologized for....like refusly) or
b. it's too long of a story

so someone, please help me out.

next: I AM READY TO MOVE ON FROM MIDDLE SCHOOL! i am allllllways complaining about it, but it's like when will this CRAP END?! i have soooo much anger towards that school...seriously, amy and i (not zimmerman...except amy zimmerman is really nice lol) were talking and she agrees with me that you learn WAY more in the social area then in academics, which totally defeats the purpose of school! its just like a place to for torture! think about it...
you have to wake up so god damn early
you have to listen to the "fat" (haha) office complain abou god KNOWS WHAT
you need to learn how to do all of that retarted homework mr mcclain piles onto you
you have to manage your grade in science
you have to deal with social...just like...stress
and you have to pretend like you are happy and smile about it.

only one good thing about middle school is....shit i have nothing
lol

okay i love naomi. thank you SO DAMN much for being there for me ALWAYS!!!!!! i love you so much...you are a good just like genuine person, and that is why i love you. just...don't let anyone let you down or doubt you, because i KNOW you have the potential to totally fulfill your dreams and you are so just like optimistic and powerful and an amazing person- stay strong love!!! i'm so glad we're friends

people i love

1. my family (well of course)
2. naomi muah
3. kelsey!!! i love you fun fun fun
4. tyrie
5. jazmyn
6. jasmine..things are..just different but i still love you
7. kati (maybe not love...but i can definitly fit room in for liking her)
8. jake epstein jake epstein jake epstein jake epstein jake epstein
9. mackenzie
10. emma
11. hanna (valentines day...will be awesome...again lol)
12. kali
13. monique
14. abra
15. lindsey! (wait...you are my family...oh well i considor you one of my good friends anyways)
16. my doggie
17. the keifers (wait, maybe i dont even like them, but hey...they brought naomi and i the carrots and the keifer, how could you not love them for that?)
18. hart
19. will
20. mrs morris (haha wait...serously though...soarry aboot toamorrow againe..schools oot though go hoome) haha good

that is my top 20 list, not listed in order just off the top of my head!!!

I LOVEEEEEE EVERYONNNNE!!!!!

love always,
elizabeth
xoxoxo

hugs and kisses